Fathers Day

Ok so I’m a few days late. In all honesty, I tried to get this out on Fathers Day I really did. Here’s the deal: life happened. I got hit with three days of depression and migraines. Now I’m not here to make excuses, but shit happens.

It took me three days to get out of this slump. It took me three days to evaluate my mood and tell myself to smarten the fuck up. It’s not always as easy as it seems but like I said before, it’s up to me and me only to decide how my day goes. I let myself down and allowed myself to stay down.

Depression is about balance and being aware of your mood. It’s not always easy and the lows seem to get lower and lower. It might be hard at times, but it’s important to stay open and always remember to keep talking. Talk to anyone you can because bottled up emotion is a goddamn time bomb waiting to happen.

So again, I know I’m a few days late but……..

Happy fathers day to every Dad and Step Dad out there! This includes every single Mom, grandparent, Aunt, Uncle, and family friend who has ever stepped up when a child was in need.

N.R.W

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Migraines Part Deux

Ok so, awhile back I wrote this article about migraines. This is a follow up post that I have been contemplating for awhile now. I told myself when I started this blog that I was going to be 100 percent me, I’m not entirely sure why I was really contemplating anything. I have found 80 percent pain free days with the help of Medical Marijuana.

Let me tell you fine folks about how CBD Oils have literally changed my life. I went from taking 2 to 3 different pain medications a day, along with 2 different antidepressants, as well as having a back up (narcotic) just in case nothing else worked……. to NO MORE PILLS!!!!!

I know there are some of you who think it’s absolutely absurd, but guess what…. I dont give a damn what you think. I now live a life without a constant head ache. I went from having pain every single moment of my damn day to 2 maybe 3 hours A WEEK. I feel as if I’m free, free from something that has literally held me back from day to day activities.

I have changed a few thing in my day to day, minimal caffeine (I sneak a Coke here and there). I have now been alcohol free since February, ya that’s right no more weekend whiskeys. I also drink a Shakeology shake everyday. I have actually found that if I dont drink a shake, by the end of the day my head will start to aggravate me.

This combination has given me a new life, a life that I am no longer haunted with the possibility of being immobilized by pain. I feel like a new man to be honest. I do this super weird thing called sleep, all my medications before literally kept me awake until my body just shut down and I would sleep for a few days.

I feel as if I’m a better father and honestly a better husband. I dont scare my kids anymore when “daddy puked because he has a headache” or “daddy needs help walking because his head hurts”.

I’m not afraid to be alone with my kids, that’s right I was literally afraid to be alone with my kids.

So around this time last year, my wife was away on business for a few days and the girls and I were having a “girls week”. I ended up staying home all week due to my youngest puking about 3 hours after mom left. So we had a week of at home snuggles and tea parties, and that weekend we finally ventured out with Nana (my momma). We had a beautiful day at the park ending with some ice cream. We got the icecream and a wave hit me, a wave of pure agonizing pain. I asked my mom if she would watch the kids while I went home and slept for a bit. I’m not entirely sure how I made it home, all I remember was getting to my house and when I got to my room, I blacked out from the pain and woke up 6 hours later on the floor to my dad pounding on the door. This was why I was scared to be alone with my children. How am I supposed to take care of them if I can’t function.

IM FREEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

If there is anyone out there thinking about the idea of medical marijuana, DO IT. I’m serious, there are options out there for everyone. Get that “stoner” stigma out of your head.

My new life is beautiful.

N.R.W

Migraines

Stop

How many of you have had a migraine? and im not just saying a headach but an actual day changing throw everything out the window migraine.

I have been getting migraines ever since i can remember. The earliest memory i have of getting them is probably when i was about 6-7 years old and i just remember crying and crying to make it stop and i couldnt walk and i just remember being so affraid it wasnt going to end. It did end and i moved on but to this day they still haunt me whenever and whereever they please.

In the past year or so i have noticed that my migraines and even day to day headachs have started to take a turn for the worse so i have reached out to my doctor for more help then usual. This is something that me and my Doctor have been working with and trying to figure out for many years and finally i said to him a few months back,

Ok im done with this i need to see a specialist because i cant do this anymore,  I want some peace of mind that this thing isnt something else.

He had absoulty no problem refering me to someone. Ok heres how bad our health care system is, im told i need to document everything i am doing to prevent them from happening for the nuerologist to take me serious.

Do you ever get that feeling within the first few moments of meeting someone that you can tell they have already made up their mind about you? Lets fast forward to me calling my doctor becuase this “nuerologist” did just that. I walked out of her office with two fucking perscriptions and what she thinks is going to be a follow up in three months. One i was currently on and the other was something i had tried a few years ago which i told her did not work.

So here we are back at square one waiting for my next appointment with a different specialist.

N.R.W

 

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